june favorites ☀️

alrighty, june has actually been a good month for me!

self care first:

philosophy's fresh cream lotion. oh my god this lotion smells so good and i recently started applying some when i'm done showering and i feel so smooth and smell so edible. i finally know what these ladies are talking about.

walking!!! this month i said i'm not gonna wait on my husband to come home to go on a walk with the baby, i just did it. it felt so nice to get out and make it a habit. i downloaded pikmin bloom i think it's called cause of course i had to gamify it.

hobbies:

blogging! why didn't i do this sooner? i have my journal but sometimes it's easier to type and i get to share it with you guys. pretty fun, didn't think i was going to keep up really.

i started scrapbooking to look back on memories of my son's first year. i was just printing photos out and putting them in an album but i kept seeing tiktoks of moms making scrapbooks and i gave in. it helps to keep me off my phone which is a plus.

i've been playing fabledom. it's a very cute city builder and i've had it since idk 2024 and i keep playing on and off. i'm always behind on food production and it stresses me out so i log off BUT this time i've been doing pretty good so i'm obsessed lol.

food:

god i've been downing tacos lately. making them myself cause getting mexican on uber is draining my pockets. i had gotten a chicken shredder to help since before i would do it by hand and i wouldn't even be hungry anymore. it's saved me so much time, tacos are no longer a once in a blue moon thing. 

smores dip!!! i used to make this during the pandemic with my brother when we had an actual dish dedicated to that but i have no idea where that had gone. i went and bought a new one and i've been having it as a snack, it's too good.

tv shows/movies:

i loved the backrooms movie, i was looking forward to it coming out and it was fun. i was anxious the entire time, i would not let go of my husband's hand lollll. i was getting all sweaty in that theater.

last but not least, house of the dragon. i've been waitinngggg for this season to come out. people are saying it's bad but i like it, maybe cause i stuck around and i need to know how it's going to end. 

little outing 🌿

there's this fast food place called Fluffies and it's the most delicious chicken and mac i've ever tasted. my husband and i usually go on the weekends cause it's all the way in the city and don't want to take that trip on a weekday. we got our son ready, took all the essentials, and started driving. it only takes like 45 minutes which is not bad at all but after work? not gonna do it. for a saturday, the traffic was not horrendous. thank goodness honestly cause i was starving. 

i had let my son out of the car seat so he can explore a bit and i'm surprised he didn't go after my food. he goes after everyone's food now!! i was hesitant to eat in front of him but he had his toys. if you're coming to nyc you gotta try this, the sauce isn't terrible but i'm not that big of a sauce person anyway.

we went to barnes and noble in union square to see some board books and board games. there was a lil section for my son to play so we set him down for like three minutes cause he decided he did not want to move. yeah that mat was super dirty but i wiped him DOWN. 

he loves seeing everything and everyone, no fuss. only time he's a good baby is outside which is nice, i can handle his tantrums at home lol

being at barnes and noble is soooo bittersweet to me cause i love reading but i can't do physical books anymore. my eyes hurt, my hands hurt, my neck hurts. i just stare at them longingly :( 

it's nice seeing the city even if it's for two hours but this boy is on a schedule and i will not mess it up. but yeah it was a nice day.

meet the kitties 🐈‍⬛

i realized you guys probably haven't seen my cats! so my dad and i are actually allergic but my mom's been wanting one. she hit a rough patch and my dad wanted to gift her one so he started looking up hypoallergenic cats (not 100% but you know). he landed on sphynx cats and we adopted our first one in 2019. 

i named him squints cause he squints a lot lol. he was actually malnourished when we got him and he collapsed on us but he's a-okay and 7 years old! he's my first baby, he's so loving while also being anti social. he was an only child for a little over a year before we got another two and they were brothers.

we named them pinky and chuckles. they actually took it well on the first day. we had a whole bunch of toys for them laid out and they immediately took to them. they were also attached to squints. they would climb him and cuddle and squints acted annoyed but he enjoyed it.

we were set on three cats until we took one of them to the vet and the doctor there told us that a small sphynx was found wandering brooklyn and was taken in by a shelter if we wanted to check him out. my mom obviously wanted to and we headed there. 

it was the summer so he had gotten a sunburnt :( he was a little sick and we would need to give him medicine but he was very cuddly and not at all scared. maybe a lil on the car ride home but he was exploring in no time away from all the other cats.

anyway his name is bologna and he completes our family. he's such a cuddle bug and he likes perching on our shoulders and cuddling with the other cats.

squints

pinky (left), chuckles (right)

bologna

it's getting hot as hell in nyc

i love the transitional seasons in the city but the summer?? and the winter?? the summer has to be the actual worst though. because we are nicknamed the concrete jungle, it makes sense people think we have no trees except for in central park. we have plenty of trees and a lot of shade but because there's so much damn concrete, it's an oven. 

12-4pm is the worst time to be outside. the sun is high, there's too many people, there's no wind. you have to go early morning to soak up the 70+ degree air and the slight breeze. like today i actually had to go to the apple store on 5th ave around 7am cause they're open 24/7 for my husband to get a battery replacement. whole trip was a waste cause his phone is "old" (literally 3 years old) and they don't have batteries in stock. that was a bust but i did get to see the louis vuitton bag installment.

anyway, it was very nice around that time and if i didn't have to go back to free my MIL from my son i would've wanted to walk around central park since it's only a block away. there's a castle there I've been wanting to see for the longest but central park is like a maze to me, i had gotten lost with my friend back in high school and we just started following a random road to get out 🙃

OH my husband had also proposed to me there! this was before i found out i was pregnant and i was feeling like complete shit. all the walking while feeling nauseous and lightheaded but we did get donuts afterwards so i felt a tinnnyyy bit better. 

i gotta go out and take pictures for this blog, i think that would be so fun.

weaning off pacifier (help me)

welp, here i am. i knew this was gonna happen but it came so fast i'm not gonna lie. i have to start weaning off the pacifier. NOOO. i'm just doing it cold turkey which might make me lose my mind but i know it's probably the most effective and fastest way to get them used to it. 

my husband's like "oh, he's not very attached, he only needs it when he's sleeping, it'll be easy." WRONG. The hardest part of the day are his naps and bedtime, we need that pacifier for our sanity and so does he to be able to sleep so, yes, he is attached.

i have multiple plushies for him to cuddle with to play substitute and it's gonna have to work because his pacifier dependency will not win. 

for his first nap today, i gave him the binky cause i was just not ready to be dealing with that so early in the morning. his second nap was when i decided to give it a shot. oh my god, he lost his mind. he was crying for like five minutes even when i was there trying to console him and offer the plushie. 

it went on like this for fifteen minutes and in the end i had to shush him a bit for him to close his eyes and drift off. i wanna say that it wasn't a bad first attempt, i thought it'd be worse. we'll see for his final nap and bedtime. i'm actually scared lollll.

26 birthday wishlist 🛍️🎂

i know in my bio it says im 26 but i actually will be next month!! july cancers hello!! i wanted to drop my wishlist cause i love sharing some inspo and just remembering some things i wanted.

starting off with what i want the most: a wallet

- Skelecat's Travelling Ghost Circus Wallet

this is such a fun wallet and my current cardholder can no longer fit all of my cards and cash so now i have to upgrade. it's still small which is great cause i don't need anything really bulky. 

- Witches Pantry Wallet

i know i know im being a hypocrite, i just said i don't need anything bulky but this is too cute to not want. 

- i was seeing all these chala wallets and this one was just calling out to me idk. this one is a lil bulky but it can fit everything i want to bring.

- going into bags. i've been wanting a slouchy, spacious bag and this badblue bag i've been seeing ads on tiktok for looks like it fits the bill. it's so prettyyy

- i just need a new makeup bag. i've been using a grey pencil case i bought from daiso like ten years ago and it's going to burst. 

- another thing i need badly: a phone case. i have the flip7 and i've been using a regular black case. no designs, no whimsy, no cutesy. just plain. so these two are from casetify. i usually will never buy from casetify cause it's too expensive but i can't find anything for this phone.

- next, i collect playing cards! it started off when we used to roadtrip and get a souvenir from each place but it's grown from that to just getting pretty cool looking ones i can find.

and that's mainly it. i would want more oddities but i don't have the space for it right now :( my giftful is where all my links are at on the right hand side if you wanna see more!

trying to get back into grad school 🙃

before i had my baby i was in my first semester of grad school. i knew i didn't want to be in school when i was to give birth and my due date was literally a month into the next semester. i know how i am and if i were to recover from birth, go through the newborn trenches, and go to school, i honestly would've lost my mind. so i took a semester off and then the next cause i was NOT ready. so a whole year. fine.

since april, i've been trying to register for this fall and oh my god, this whole process is so unprofessional. i've called, emailed, had meetings with the right people and for some reason i am not enrolled in anything 🤡 there's apparently one person this all rides on and he's not replying to me or the person trying to help me. 

if this doesn't work out, because of them mind you, i'd have to drop out and then re-enroll. it's so stupid. i just wanna get my masters and be donnneeee.

fellowship of the ring review!! (spoilers)

 

not really a review but just some things that stuck out to me lol

i have tried many times to watch the extended version but by 30 minutes i was losing interest so my husband has finally convinced me to give it another shot but just the original version. i am now invested lol i always enjoy early 2000s fantasy movies because of the practical effects and the camera quality gives it that whimsical nostalgia. 

i will say though, some parts i cannot take seriously, don't come after me pls like the fight between gandalf and saruman and when galadriel turns green. i had a to chuckle a few times, im sorry pfftt. 

it was a great movie besides that!! i loved the characters, i don't know how but i was actually sad that boromir died?? he was kind of an ass when we first met him and he seemed very impulsive. ugh but that one scene of him training with the friends and they tackle him and he's smiling was super cute. don't get me started on pippin. this man was causing trouble everywhere!! like go home pls butt when frodo got stabbed by that giant, he definitely jumped in to avenge him. he gets his points. 

speaking of frodo getting stabbed, i thought he died again!! well not again but nearly. he had no break during this entire journey, that poor man. i was anxious for him. 

my husband was telling me about all the memes that came out of this movie and i vaguely remember in my youth seeing the "one does not..." meme around 2012 or something. i'm watching the scene and im like waiiitttt, something about this seems familiar. such an old meme my goodness. 

gonna start watching the sequel tonight!

blw + puree pt 2 ☆ baby preferring fruits

when we started solids i remember we gave him a mango puree and he did not like it whatsoever but it also could've been because it was something new. 

so we tried giving him chicken puree and he didn't like that either. finally, a banana puree and he loved that one. and because we wanted to keep the momentum going, we continued giving him banana every time we did solids. of course, we tried giving him something new but if he refused, it was back to banana.

that is coming back to bite us in the butt. like i said before he didnt mind egg and bread and just recently a tiiiinnnyy bit of broccoli but i gave him a sweet pea puree and he hates it.

maybe he hates veggies in puree form but doesnt mind it when it's presented as a finger food. plan is, continue offering veggies in puree form, possibly take away the fruit crutch or just try to mix it in, and offer veggies as finger foods along with something he already likes, like egg.

i don't want to raise a picky eater 😪

baby shower!! 🎉

i went to a baby shower yesterday and it was my first one! everybody that i know had babies a little before me and they didn't have showers but my cousin is pregnant again and this time she threw one! it was a chill tea party theme. now because this is my family and i know how they are, i have a few complaints loooool.

i hate being late to events and i understand some people might not show up on time because there won't be a lot of people there. however, i feel like with parties that had you to rsvp, bring presents, and dress up, you would want to be on time. 

anyway, party didn't start til 4 and the original time was 2.

like wtfffff. listen, i'm a type A mom, i want this baby to fall asleep on time, with the schedule i worked so hard to put in place cause then he gets literally so angry he starts growling and crying. plan was to show up at 2 and leave at 5 like these people won't think twice about it. no, party started at 4, im gonna look like a dickhead now leaving an hour later. we literally ate, took some pictures, talked a bit, then dipped. 

it was hot as hell yesterday too. my baby is all red in the cheeks, nose bridge is sweating and he was tired. im leaving idc. 

stopped by a supermarket, got a chocolate cake, went home, and ate with my husband after the baby went to bed. 

doctors visit for baby (kinda gross)

it's official, this is the longest my baby has gone without pooping. omggggggg. of course i gave him all the foods that cause constipation without knowing. i was given a glycerin pill and that didn't help at all so now off to the doctors to see what to do next. god i've been dreading this day 😔

update: i guess being a mother means having to help your baby poop by just biting the bullet and scooping it out because you can't stand to see your baby pushing with all his might and nothing is coming out even though you can literally see it. i got a good amount out but i still went to the doctor who gave him another glycerin pill and this time it did work. he was prescribed a laxative powder so now i have to administer that for a week. i'm just glad he's feeling better.

neocities?? 💻

before starting this blog i heard of something called neocities. i saw how creative people were getting with their websites and i wanted to join in on the fun... until i heard you had to code.

yeah, that's why i came here. i need templates and easy ways to customize and i honestly think my blog came out pretty.

now, i did try my hand at making a blog over there but wow it took me like three hours to figure out my background and header and now my head feels like it's going to explode. 

i'm probably still gonna try and figure it out bit by bit but i'm happy here

summer side quests ☀️

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instead of buckets lists, i like to do these seasonal side quests cause they feel more manageable!

1. i want to experience a drive-in theater

this does mean that it'll have to be a day when grandma is watching our baby and probably at night. i'm always on these websites checking to see if there's a movie i'd go see, knowing that we don't have the time right now

2. bake smores cookies

i am obsessed with the ones from chip city but i cannot keep eating a 1000 calorie cookie in one day. those big cookies have four servings?? no way

3. dye hair

i haven't died my hair since like 6 years ago and it was blue. i had bought pink hair dye a few years back but i never got to it. i'm not feeling particularly bold right now so i'm probably gonna do a small section

4. have a picnic with the family

my baby is going to start crawling soon and when he does i would want to go to a park so he can experience the grass and sun while eating some yummy food

i'm so excited to do these things, hopefully i get around to it!! 🫶🏻

thrifting online

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my shopping addiction is coming back, i fear. i used to love thrifting and i would go with my friend to the bins and stay for hours. i never thought of it as a making-money type of thing, it was literally all for me to see if i liked it. and most of the things ended up looking atrocious on me and i kept it cause i didn't know how to give things away.

that had stopped cause i had gotten a full time job and i was going to school so i had to use my time and money wisely. i also gained weight so i wasn't taking the chance. 

fast forward to now. i have a baby, baby clothes are expensive, i'm a stay at home mom (for now), i have my husbands card.... yeah, i'm spending money. i downloaded vinted and whatnot and oh my god the adrenaline to find cute things for cheap and bidding... don't get me started on the dopamine when i click pay. i don't even want to look at our bank account.

then i started looking at clothes for me but i really had to stop myself. i have a bin of clothes that i don't wear and i need to try and sell those. i'm also in the process of losing weight so i need to be careful. urghhhh im gnawing at the bars of my enclosure.

feeling loved by baby???

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second post and i'm already gonna get a bit too in my feelings. anywho. i remember when i was in the newborn trenches and i was just in survival mode. take care of the baby, try to sleep, and keep the house clean, and cook while i'm thinking that i need to be with the baby at all times cause he might die if i take my eyes off of him for ten seconds. 

during the crying spells and the fact he wouldn't sleep sometimes, i would also cry and have a pity party cause i felt i wasn't doing any of this right. i cared for him, of course, but i didn't love him like i do now. and i feel like maybe that bit of detachment caused him to be a bit independent and not needy for me?? i don't know. 

again, he's almost eight months and i kind of expected him to be a bit cuddly when he was like six months, if anything. his personality was already coming out around four months and i thought 'oh man here it comes when they want to be carried all the time and just be in your arms and cry when they lose sight of you' but it never came. granted, we were already mostly always carrying him but he never cried when we left. he would maybe lay there and look around. now, that is normal also but i wanted him to want me.

i will say he did start crying after me when he was able to move when he was coming up seven months. i felt needed and i loved it. i still do but for the most part he just follows me now. the thing that was getting to me recently was whenever i carried him he would push away cause something else was piquing his interest. but that seemed like all the time. he wouldn't just let me hold him and kiss him. he will literally use all four of his limbs to push himself off. 

i told my husband and he would reassure me that our baby loves me and he's just curious about everything and in time he will be attached to my hip whether i want it to happen or not. i was feeling guilty about how i was when he was a newborn and thought it was my fault he wasn't attached to me. i was doing everything i can to bond with him.

BUT starting monday, he was smiling and belly laughing with me and anytime i left the room, he followed. when he got bored, he crawled to me and hit my legs which we think means he wants to be held and i do. he doesn't push me away as much but he definitely is trying to find something new to look at. now today, before his nap, (he usually goes to sleep on his own when i put him in his crib) i was carrying him and swaying and kissing his cheek softly. after a few minutes, i felt that his head was on my shoulder and he fell asleep.

i was so happy. soooooo happy. i love him so much and i hope he knows that but yeah i'm hoping there's more to come and i'm excited to see other ways he shows his affection. 

blw + puree journey

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hi!!! so my almost 8-month-old has been strictly on purees because i've been listening to my mother buttt i've decided to branch out and try my hand at baby-led weaning. while i'm not completely cutting off purees, finger foods are going to be what i feed him and if he's not really feeling something then i will just give him a jar of puree. 

it's been about two weeks now and i think he's enjoying all the new sensations and tastes. i've given him egg before and he was just picking it up and looking at me with a lil bit of disgust 😭

but after figuring out how to hold it and bring it to his mouth, he seemed to enjoy it. the next day i gave him banana and he loved it which was not a surprise. 

today i gave him toast and i had to put banana on it so he would at least try it but he liked it a bit. for dinner we're gonna try chicken and see cause he needs some meat. 

will update tmm!!